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<p><strong><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight:normal"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"></span></b>刘兴安</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"> <span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">张</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"> </span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">镜</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"> <span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">译</span></strong><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /></span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">一</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> <br /> 通常，到我工作的这家报馆来求教的人并不特别要见某个人。我们有位记者，定期写专栏文章，向读者进一言，所以来访的人一般都介绍给他。但是，这个人专门要见我。于是，他被带到我的办公室。他个儿挺高，进门时得低一下脑袋。他没戴帽子，一头蓬乱的头发中夹杂着灰白头发。他眉毛很粗，一双黑眼睛露出凶光，使我颇为害伯。虽然外边下着雪，他却只穿一件薄雨衣。由于天冷他的长方脸冻得通红。他没打领结，衬衫敞开着，露出了胸膛，胸前的汗毛象兽毛一样浓密。他宽鼻梁、厚嘴唇。说话时露出一口大牙，齿缝很宽，但牙齿看来却异常坚固。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> 他说：“</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">你就是我要找的那位作家吗？”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我就是。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> 他似乎觉得意外。“就是坐在这张桌子后面你这位矮小的人吗</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">”他说，“在我的想象中，你可有点两样呀。不过，事物也不一定非和我们想象的一样。你写的作品，我是一字不漏地看，不管是用意第绪语写的，还是用英语写的，我都看。每当我听说你在什么杂志上发表了什么作品时，我马上就跑出去买。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “非常感谢。请坐吧。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我宁愿站着……不过……噢……坐下来也好。我可以抽烟吗</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “当然可以。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我应当告诉你，我不是美国人。我是在第二次世界大战以后来到这儿的。我经历了希特勒的地狱，另外还经历了两三个别的地狱。但这不是我来找你的原因。你有时间听我谈吗</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “有，我有时间。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “在美国，人人都是忙忙碌碌的。而你怎么会有时间写那么多东西，并且还接见来访读者呢</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “做什么事都是有时间的。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “也许是如此。在美国这地方，时间转瞬即逝，一星期不算什么，一个月不算什么，一年说话间也就过去了。可是在那边的那些地狱里，却是过一天比在这里过一年好象还要长。从一九五零年起我就住在这个国家了，岁月如梦一样地过去了。一会儿夏季，一会儿冬季，光阴在飞逝啊。你看我多大岁数了？”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “四十多岁——也许五十岁了。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “再加十三岁。到四月我就六十三岁了。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “你看起来可年轻啊——但愿你永久如此。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “人们都这么说。我们家的人，头发是不白的。我祖父是九十三岁时去世的，但他几乎没有什么白头发。他是个铁匠。我母亲祖上是读书人。我上过犹太学校一—我是古尔神学院的学生，有一段时间在立陶宛。我只上到十七岁，一点不错，但是我的记性好。我学什么东西，就象刻在脑子里一样。我什么事情都不会忘记，从某种意义上来说，这也是我的可悲之处。一旦我确信钻研犹太教法典毫无用处，我便开始学习世俗的书籍。那时，俄国人走了，德国人接管了。后来波兰独立了，我应征入伍。在把布尔什维克们赶到基辅时，我也出过力。然后，他们又把我们赶回到维斯杜拉河边。波兰人不怎么喜欢犹太人，但我还是升了。他们让我当了上士，这是没上过军事学校的人能得到的最高军衔了。战后，他们表示愿意送我上军事学院。我本来会成为上校什么的，但是，我的志向不在兵营。我读了许多书，我画画，我想成为雕刻家。我开始用木头雕刻各种各样的人物。未了，我当了做家具的木匠。细木工——我专门修理家具，主要是旧式家具。你知道是怎么回事吧——嵌饰脱落、小件断头之类。修理完毕要不露痕迹，可是技术啊。我至今也不知道我怎么会如此热衷于这种工作。要找到纹理对路的木头、合适的颜色，嵌进去．要镶得天衣无缝，连家具的主人都找不到那一块是补接的；要做到这一点，就得有极大的耐心，外加天性。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “现在我要告诉你我来找你的原故。这是因为你常写些神秘的东西：心灵感应、妖精、鬼怪、催眠术、宿命论、等等，我全部都看，我之所以如此，因为我就具有你描述过的那种魔力。我不是吹牛来的，也没想要当个新闻记者。在美国，我干的还是本行，挣的钱足够用。我是个光棍儿，没有妻子，没有孩子。他们把我家里人都杀光了。我喝点威士忌酒，但我并非酒鬼。我在纽约这儿有一套公寓房间，在伍德斯托克有一所小别墅。我不需要任何人的帮助。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “还是回过头来谈魔力吧。你说人的魔力是天生的，这话很对。一切都是生效的。我六岁时候开始雕刻。后来对雕刻淡漠了，但天赋犹存。魔力也是这样。我有魔力但我不知道魔力为何物。一天早晨，我起床后，脑子里闪过一个念头：这一天我们楼里什么人要从窗户掉下去，那时我们住在华沙特瓦尔达衔。我不喜欢这个念头，因为它使我害伯。我上学去了，当我放学回到家里时，只见院子里黑压压一片尽是人。救护车刚到。原来是一个装玻璃的工人在二楼换一块玻璃时摔了下来。如果这种事情只发生过一次、两次甚至五次，我可以说那是巧合。但这种事情多得很，不可能是巧合。说也奇怪，我开始理解到我应当把这种事隐瞒起来——它就好象是一块难看的胎记似的。我没有理解错，因为这种魔力的确是一种不幸。天生聋了、瘸了也都比有这种魔力好啊。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “但是不管你多么小心，也无法把每件事情都放在心里不说出来。有一次，我在橱房里坐着。我母亲——愿她安息——正在织袜子。我父亲虽然是个工人，但他挣钱不少。我们家住的一套公寓房间很舒适，很干净，象有钱人家的房子一样。我家有许多铜盘，我母亲每星期都把那些盘子擦得锃亮。我坐在一条矮长凳上，那时我还不满七岁。突然间，我说：“妈妈，地板底下有钱！有钱！”母亲停住手里的活儿，惊奇地望着我。‘什么钱？你胡说些什么？’‘钱，’我说‘是金币。’我母亲说：“你疯了？你怎么知道地板底下有什么东西</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">’‘我知道，’我说。我这时已意识到我不应当说那个话，可是晚了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “当我父亲回家吃饭时，我母亲把我的话告诉了他。我不在跟前，但是我父亲十分惊讶。他承认在地板下边藏了一些金币。我有个姐姐，我父亲攒钱是为她办嫁妆，普通老百姓都没有把钱存入银行的习惯。当我放学回家时，父亲使开始责问我。</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"> </span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">‘你在偷看我干事吗</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">’实际上，父亲藏钱时，我上学去了，母亲出去买东西了。我姐姐看朋友去了。父亲闩上门，还加了锁，而且我们家住在三楼。父亲又仔细地用棉花把锁眼堵住。我挨了一顿揍，但是不管我怎么说，也解释不清焚我是如何知道这些钱币的。‘这孩子是个鬼！’我父亲说，他又打了我一记耳光。这对我是一次很好的教训，使我再不敢乱说了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我童年时这种事可多了，我可以给你讲一百件，这里我再讲一个吧。我们家街对面，有个卖奶品的商店。那些年，我们是到店里去买热午奶的。他们在煤气灶上煮奶。一天早晨，母亲给了我一个锅并说：‘你去街对面泽尔达那里买一夸脱热牛奶来。’我到了那儿，店里只有一个顾客——是个姑娘，她要买几盎司黄油。在华沙，人们习惯于用一种弓子——象孩子们在七周节</span>【<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman'">七周节指犹太逾越节第二天到五旬节前一天的四十九天期间，犹太教有许多禁忌。</span>】<a title="" href="http://www.heilan.com/forum/post.php?action=new&boardid=5#_edn1" name="_ednref1" style="mso-endnote-id:edn1"><span class="MsoEndnoteReference"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><span style="mso-special-character:footnote"><span class="MsoEndnoteReference"><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"></span></span></span></span></span></a><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">期间去普拉加树林采果子时携带的那种玩意儿——把黄油从一大块黄油上切下来称给顾客。我一拾头，看到一种奇异的现象：有一道光在泽尔达的头上闪耀，就好象她的假发里点着一盏祭神节</span>【<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman'"><span style="font-family:宋体;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman'">祭神节；犹太人节日，从犹太历三月二十五日开始庆祝八天，用以纪念犹大·马卡比在纪元前一六五年重祭犹太圣殿。</span></span>】<span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">时用的灯似的。我站在那儿目瞪口呆地凝视着——这怎么可能呢</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">那个姑娘在柜台前对着泽尔达说话，好象没有发觉任何异常的地方。泽尔达在称上约好黄油，那姑娘便走了。泽尔达说：‘进来，进来。干吗站在门口不进来呀？’我想问她：‘你头顶上怎么有一道光在闪耀</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">’但我已经预感到我是唯一知道此事的人。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “第二天，我放学回到家，母亲对我说：‘你听说了吗？奶品店的泽尔达栽倒在地上死了。’你可想而知我有多么害怕。那时我大约别八岁。打那以后，我还多次看到快要死的人头顶上出现那种光。谢天谢地，过去二十年里我没有再看到过那种光了，按我这个岁数，在和我相处的人们中，我本来可以时常看到那种光才对。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><br /></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight:normal"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">二</span></b><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “一些时候以前，你写过文章说，每次热恋中，都存在一种心灵感应的因素。对此，我深有感触，便决定一定来找你。在我这一生中，这种事发生不是一次，也不是十次，而是不知多少次。我年轻时是很风流的，看见女人便一见钟情。在那个时候，你不能直接走近女人，对她说你爱她。姑娘们都很娇嫩，连一句话都受不了。而我也有点害羞，而且高傲。我可不是追逐女人的人。总之，我不会去找一个姑娘谈话，我只是想她——日日夜夜地想她。我幻想种种不可思议的幽会和奇遇。接着，我就注意到我的想法应验了。我朝思暮想的姑娘果真会到我跟前来。有一次，我故意在华沙一条熙熙攘攘的大街上等候一个女人。我虽不是数学家，但我也知道，这个女人恰好在这个时候走过这条街道的可能性约为二千万分之一。可是她真来了，好象为一块看不见的磁铁所吸引似的。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我不太容易轻信，就在今天我也有怀疑。我们愿意相信不论发生什么事情，都是有道理的，井然有序的。我们害怕神秘的事物——如果有善的魔力，就可能有恶的魔力，天晓得这些邪恶的魔力会做出什么事情！但是，我经历的荒诞不经的事情太多了，因此只有傻瓜才会对这些事情视而不见。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “也许由于我有这种磁一般的吸引力吧，我从未结过婚。我无论如何不是那种只满足于一个女人的男子。我还有些别的魔力，那就不说了。我生活在人们所说的土耳其式的天堂里——情人常常同时有五六个之多。在我过去经常修家具的客厅里，我常常结识一些漂亮的女人——大都是非犹太人。我总是听到他们赞扬我，说我不同于一般犹太人等一类的话。我有一间屋子，门是另开的，这对一个光棍儿正合适。我的食橱里有白兰地和烈性酒，还有许多精美的食物。如果我把这屋里沙发上发生的事情告诉你，你就可以写一本书了——不过，谁又在乎这个？年龄越大，我越清楚地认识到：对现代人来说，结婚纯粹是神经病。如果没有宗教，整个这个制度就是荒唐的了。当然，你的母亲和我的母亲都是忠贞的妇女，对她们来说，只有一个上帝，也只有一个丈夫。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “现在我谈谈我的主要的一点。尽管在那些年我和许多女人好过，但有一个却和我一起生活了近三十年，实际上，一直到纳粹轰炸华沙的一天为止。这一天，成千上万的人过了桥，到了普拉加。我想带玛尼娅——她叫玛尼娅——一块走，但是她患了流行性感冒，我没法等她。我在波兰有许多亲友，但是大祸临头，他们丝毫不顶用。后来我听说，她住的那所房子挨炸了，变成了一片废墟。从此，我再没有听到玛尼娅的消息。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “这个玛尼娅本来会被人看做是个平淡无奇的姑娘。她是大波兰省</span>【<span style="font-family:宋体;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman'"><span style="font-family:宋体;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman'"><span style="font-family:宋体;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman'">大波兰省是波兰的行政区划之一。</span></span></span>】<span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">的某个小村子的人。我们相遇时，她是童贞女子，我是童贞男子。但是没有任何力量能够把我们之间的爱情摧毁，即使是我的不忠行为也没有使这种爱情夭折。不知怎么搞的，我的一切可憎恶的行为她都知道，并且不断警告我：她要离开我，要嫁人，如此等等。但是她每周照来不误——而且常常是一周不止一次。其他女人从不在我的房间里过夜，但是玛尼娅一来，就住下了。她并不特别漂亮——皮肤黑黑的，个儿不高，有一双黑眼睛，头发是卷曲的。在她村儿里，人们管她叫吉普赛人玛尼娅。她有吉普塞人的种种特征。她用纸牌给人算命还看手相。她相信各种巫术和迷信。甚至她的穿着也象是吉普赛人：花裙子，方形的披巾，戴大耳环，脖子上挂着红色珠子。她嘴唇上总是叼着根香烟。她在一家女内衣店当售货员，以此为生。店主是一对年迈夫妇，没有孩子，玛尼娅几乎成了他们的女儿，她是个出色的售货员。她能缝会绣，甚至学会了怎样做妇女紧身胸衣。店里店外全靠她。如果她有意偷盗的话，她早发财了，但她百分之百地诚实。反正老俩口在遗嘱中会把店铺留给她的。后来几年，老头子得了肝病，老俩口就到卡尔斯巴德、马里安巴德和比斯扎尼疗养去了。他们把一切都托付给玛尼娅。她有什么必要嫁人呢，她就需要一个男人，而我就是这样一个男人。这个姑娘文化水平不高，但她的举止却有其文雅之处——特别是在性生活方面。在我一生中，天晓得我有过多少女人，但从来没有一个象她这样的。她有任性和怪癖的地方，每当我想到她这些毛病，真是哭笑不得。虐待狂是虐待狂，受虐狂是受虐狂——所有这些荒唐事是不是都有个名称呢</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">我们俩每次吵架都非常难过，而言归于好又亲昵得不得了。她的烹调手艺足可侍奉国王。她的老板和老板娘去矿泉疗养地时，她在他们的住所里给我做饭。我过去常说，她做的东西有女性的吸引力，这话是有些道理的。这些显她好的一面。坏的一面是，玛尼娅一想到我还有其他女人，她就恼火。她千方百计扫我的兴。我秉性不会撒谎，但是由于她的原故，我学会了撒谎。而且是不由自主地撒谎。我不需要捏造谎言——我的舌头自个儿就撒起谎来。我常常奇怪：人的舌头会是多么聪明和多么有远见啊。舌头有预见性——我后来才认识到这一点。但是，你不可能把任何人欺骗三十年。玛尼娅知道我的习惯，她一直在暗中监视我；我的电话常常半夜里响了起来。同时，我和其他女人的韵事却给她一种反常的享受。有时我向她坦白了，她便要问个仔细，把我骂个狗血淋头，又哭又笑的，到了发狂的地步。我常常感到自己是个驯兽的人——一个把头伸进狮子嘴里的驯兽人。我始终知道，只有在玛尼娅作为画中背景的情况下，我和其他女人要好才有意义。有了玛尼娅，伯爵夫人帕托茨卡就可以成交。如果没有玛尼娅，对任何女人的征服都一文不值。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “有时不巧，我从某旅店或者也许某贵族庄园干了一件冒险的事回来，同一个晚上我还要和玛尼娅厮混一番。她又使我兴奋起来，于是我再来一次，好象没事儿似的。但随着年龄的增长，我开始担心房事过多可能对我的身体有一定的危害。我有几分疑心病了。我读医学书和报纸上的文章。我担心会毁了我的身体。有一次，我回到了家，己精疲力竭了，但还要与玛尼娅相会。正在这时，我脑子里闪过一个念头：要是玛尼娅来了月经那该多好，那我就不必和她一起过夜了。我给她打了个电话，她说道：‘真奇怪，我这个月月中就过节了’——她管月经叫节日。于是我对自己说道，‘你可成了能人了。’但这事是否真正和我的愿望有什么关系，我仍旧怀疑。只是在这种事重复多次之后，我才认识到我对玛尼娅的身体拥有发号施令的魔力。我对你说的每一句话都是千真万确的。有几次我想要她生病——当然是短暂的，因为我是很爱她的——她果然立即发起高烧来。显然，我完全控制了她的身体。如果我当初希望她死，她也会死的。我读过关于催眠术和动物磁性说以及诸如此类的书和小册子，但我从来没有想到我自己就拥有这种魔力，而且拥有这么大的魔力。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “除了能够让她按我的意愿行事外，我还知道她的思想活动。我的确能够洞察她的心事。有一次，我们吵了一架，她走了，把门砰地一声关上。由于用力过猛，窗玻璃都震动了。她刚一走，我立刻想到：她要去维斯杜拉河投河自尽。我抓起大衣默默地跟在她的后面。她走街穿巷，我象侦探一样跟着她。她从未回头。最后到了维斯杜拉河边，她就径直向水里走去。我上去一把抓住她的肩膀。她一边叫一边挣扎。我把她救了。之后，我就在脑子里向她发号施令，要她不要再想寻短见的事。后来她对我说：‘多奇怪，我过去常常想着寻死，最近丝毫没有这种念头了。这是怎么回事，你能够解释吗</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我简直什么都能够解释了。有一次，她来看我，我跟她说：‘今天你丢钱了。’她脸唰地白了。我说对了。她刚从一家储蓄银行回来，果然丢了六百兹罗提。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><br /></span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight:normal"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">三</span></b><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> <br /> “我现在给你讲讲一条狗的故事，讲完这个，我再讲一个就不讲了。有一个夏天——那准是一九二八年或者一九二九年的夏天——我疲惫不堪，又患了疑病症。我陷入许多风流事之中，不能自拔，弄得我差点儿散了架子。我的电话响个不停，玛尼娅和我吵得凶极了，有点超乎寻常了，在她工作的地方，老头子的妻子死了，玛尼娅不断地威胁着说要和那老头子结婚。她有个表兄在南非，他给她写情书，并表示要和她山盟海誓。她的深沉的爱情突然变成了可怕的仇恨了。她说要把她自己和我都毒死，她要我们来个双方自尽。她的一双黑眼睛里冒着火，宛如一个鞑靼人。我们大家都是只有天晓得什么凶手的后代。是不是你或者别的什么人曾在贵报撰文说过每个人都是一个潜在的纳粹分子</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">平常，我夜里睡得很死，但现在我却失眠了。当我终于睡着时，便又做起恶梦来。一天早晨，我感到我的末日到了。我的双腿颤抖，眼前天旋地转，耳朵里嗡嗡直响。我意识到如果不换个环境，我就完了。我决定留下一切出走。我打了行李包。在我打包的时候，电话铃一个劲儿地响，我也没有去接。我上了街，乘一辆轻便马车到维也纳车站，正好有一列火车即将开往克拉科夫，我就买了一张票，我坐在二等席上，累极了，睡了一路。在克拉科夫站上，列车员把我叫醒了。在克拉科夫，我又乘了一辆轻便马车，叫赶车的把我拉到一家旅馆去。一进旅馆房间，我便和衣倒在床上，一直眯糊到天亮。我说眯糊，是因为我老醒，似睡非睡的。我去上厕所，耳朵里听到尖叫声，铃响声。我真切地听到玛尼娅在哭，叫我回去。我悲痛欲绝，尽全身力气才克制住自己。我睡了一天一夜，到第二天上午大约十一点醒来时，我简直要死了。克拉科夫的旅馆房间里不设澡盆，如果你想洗澡，必须向侍女要澡盆。房间里有一个脸盆架和一罐水，但我还是刮了脸，用了早餐，去到火车站。我坐了几站，就到了铁路的尽头。当然，我想到山里去，但是这条路并不通向扎科潘，而只是一条支线。我来到了巴比亚古拉附近一个村庄。巴比亚古拉山和其它山都不连着一—一座孤山，游客很少。这里没有旅馆，也没有出租的房间，最后，我从一对老农夫妇家里租到一间房子。我想你知道这个地区吧，我不用和你说它有多美了。而具体到这个村子，它尤其美丽，而且荒僻，这大概是由于与世隔绝的缘故吧。那对老夫妇养了一条个头特大的狗。我不知道它是什么种。他们警告我说，那条狗咬人，要当心。我拍拍狗的脑袋，在它脖子上搔痒，它立即成了我的好朋友。这样说我还说低了，实际上，那条狗已狂热地爱上了我，简直是一见钟情。它一分钟也不离开我。老夫妇每年夏天都把那间房租出去，但那条狗从来没喜欢过一位房客。长话短叙，我逃脱了人之爱，却陷人了犬爱之中。布雷克虽是条公狗，但有种种女人气。它争风吃醋，醋劲儿比玛尼娅的还足。我出去散步时，走得很远，不论到哪里，它都跟着我。村里有大群大群的狗，我只要瞧别的狗一眼，布雷克就狂怒了。它咬别的狗，也咬我。晚上，它硬是要睡在我的床上。那些地方的狗身上有跳蚤，我想方设法不让它进我的屋，但是它拼命嚎呀，叫呀，把半个村子的人都吵醒了。我只得把它放进屋里来，它立刻就跳上了床。它嚎叫起来象人的声音。村里的人议论开了，说我是巫师。我没有在那个村子里呆多久，在那儿住久了会闷死人的。我倒是带了几本书去，但是很快就都读完了，我已得到了休息，我准备要陷入新的纠葛了。但是与布雷克告别可不是一件容易的事。它意识到我要走了，天晓得它是靠什么本领意识到的。我已从邮局给玛尼娅打过电话了，在这个神鬼共弃的村子里也收到了一些电报和挂号信。那条狗不断地又叫又嚎。最后一天，它竟痛苦地抽搐了起来，嘴里冒着白沫。老农夫妇担心狗疯了。在此之前，根本不拴狗，但这时狗的主人却买了一根铁链，把它拴在一根木桩上。它狂吠，竭力想挣脱链子，那情景真使我心肝欲裂。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我回到华沙，晒黑了，但并没有真正休息好。在华沙，玛尼娅和另外几个女人对待我无异于那个村子里的那条狗。她们都缠着我，咬我。许多人家叫我去修家具，他们不断地打电话给我。就这样，几天过去了——也许是几个星期过去了；我记不确切了。有一天，好不容易干完了活，我就早睡了。我息了灯。我疲惫不堪，立即睡着了。突然间，我又醒了。对我来说，半夜醒来是常有的事。但这一回，我醒来时感觉到有谁在我的房里。放过去醒来总感到胸口沉重，但这一次我的确感到脚上有什么东西压着。我一拾头，看到一条狗躺在我的毯子上。虽然没有点灯，但并不太暗，因为有一盏街灯照进了屋里。我认出了布雷克。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “起初，我还以为这条狗是跟着我坐的那趟火车来到华沙的。但这纯粹是胡思乱想。首先，狗是拴着的，其次，任何狗也不可能跟在一列快车后边跑那么长时间。即使这狗自己能够寻着到华沙的路并找到我的住处，它也不可能爬上三层楼呀。再说，我的门一直是锁着的。我想那不是一条有血有肉的真狗，而是一个鬼怪。我看到了它的双眼，我感到脚上有重量，但我没敢去碰它。我坐在那里，害伯极了，它直瞧着我的眼睛，表情极为悲伤，悲伤之外还有一种无以名状的表情。我想推开它，把我的脚抽回来，但我欲行又止。那不是一条狗。而是一个鬼。我又躺了下去，想再入睡。过了一会儿，我真的睡着了。那是恶梦？你就叫它恶梦吧。但那条狗的确是布雷克，我认得它的眼睛、耳朵、它的表情、那一身毛。第二天我想写信给那位老农，问问狗怎么样了。但我知道，他不识字，而我也太忙，没有时间写信。反正也是收不到回信的。我绝对相信那条狗是死了，来探望我的狗不是这个世界的生灵。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “这条狗来找我，那并不是唯一的一次。多少年来，它不时地回来，所以，即使它从未在光亮下出现过，我也有充分的时间进行观察。当我离开那个村子时，狗已经老了，在最后那天，瞧它的样子我便知道它不会活多久了。叫它魄也好，鬼也好，魂也好——爱叫什么就叫什么吧，但就我而言，一条狗的鬼魂来到我身边，卧在我腿上，不是一次，而是数十次，这是事实。起初，它几乎是每晚必来，后来次数少了。是梦吗？不，那不是做梦——除非整个人生就是一场梦。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><br /></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">四</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> <br /> “我现在讲最后一件事吧。我已对你说了，在我去修理家具的一些客厅里，我遇到过许多女人，和她们都有过关系。别看我在这儿坐着是个平平淡谈的男人，我却和波兰的一些伯爵夫人相爱过。伯爵夫人有什么了不起？人都是同样的材料制成的。但有一次，我遇到了一位少妇，她的确使我丧魂落魄。我受雇去维拉诺夫一个贵妇的家里修理一架有镀金花饰的旧钢琴。我正在干活，一位年轻妇女步态轻盈地穿过客厅。她停留了不过一秒钟，看我在做什么，我们的眼睛相对而视了一下。我如何向你描述她的容貌呢？她既是一位波兰贵妇，又是一个十足的犹太人——就好象一位温文尔雅的犹太学校学生被一种魔力变成了一位波兰小姐似的。她细长脸，一双乌黑的眼睛如此深沉，使我心慌意乱。她那双眼睛真是使我欲火中烧。这位妇人全身都充满了灵性。我从来没有看到过这样的美人。她转瞬之间就不见了，而我则象瘫了一样。后来我问主人那位美人是谁，她说是前来探望的一个侄女。她还提到是从什么庄园或城镇来的。但是我由于精神恍忽，没有记住。我要不是给弄得晕头转向的话，是很容易记住她的名字和住址的。我干完了活、她也没有再露面。但她的形象却一直在我的眼前。从那时起，我日思夜想。相思使我日渐消瘦，于是我决定，不管怎么样，我不能再这么下去了。玛尼娅意识到我情绪不对头，又闹了几次风波。我精神恍忽，虽然我对华沙了如指掌，但是却在街上迷了路，出了许多洋相。这样的日子过了几个月。慢慢地，我的单相思才有所收敛——或者也许是更深地理在我的心里了；我可以在想她的同时也思想别人了。就这样，夏去冬来，冬去春来。一天傍晚，差不多是黄昏时分——我记不得是四月还是五月，我的电话铃响了。我答了声‘喂’，没有人搭腔。但在电话线的另一端，有人还拿着听筒。我又连叫了几声‘喂！喂！喂！’我听到一种咔咔的响声和结结巴巴的说话声。我说；‘不管你是谁，请说话呀。’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “过了一会儿，我听到一种声音，那是一种女人的声音，但也是一种男孩的声音。她对我说：‘你在维拉诺夫给一家人家干过活。你记不记得当时有个人打客厅里穿过</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">’我的喉咙变紧了，舌头简直动弹不了了。‘是的，我记得你。’我说。‘谁能够忘记你的脸呢</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">，她默不作声了，我还以为她把电话挂了呢。但是，她又开始说话了——低声低气的象是喃喃自语。她说：‘我必须和你谈谈。我们可以在什么地方会面呢？’‘你想在什么地方会面就在什么地方会面，’我说，‘你愿意到我这里来吗</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">’‘不行，不可能，’她说。‘也许在一家咖啡店——’‘不，不能去咖啡店。’我说‘告诉我你可以在什么地方见我，我去好了。’她沉默了；然后她提到莫科托夫附近远离闹市区的市图书馆附近的一条小街。‘你希望什么时候会面</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">’我问她。她说，‘越快越好。’‘我现在就去怎么样？’‘好，如果你能来的话。’我知道那条街上没有咖啡店，没有饭馆，甚至连一张坐的凳子都没有，但我还是对她说我立即就去。曾经有一度，我想如果会出现这种奇迹的话，我会高兴得跳起来。但是，说也奇怪，我这时却毫不激动。我既不高兴，也不难过。我只感到惊奇。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “当我到了会晤的地方时已经是晚上了。街两边都种着树，但是没几盏灯。我在半明半暗中能够看到她。她似乎瘦了些，头发在头顶上绾成一个发髻。她站在一棵树旁边，被阴影遮掩着。那条街上除了她，空无一人。当我走近时，她惊了一下。街上的树正在开花，街沟里落花缤纷。我对她说：‘我来了，我们到哪儿去呢？’‘我想对你说的话在这里就可以说，’她回答道。‘你想对我说什么呢？’我问道。她踌躇了一会儿说道：‘我想请你让我安静地生活下去。’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">“我感到惊讶，我说：‘我不知道你是什么意思。”你知道得很清楚’她说，，你使我心神不安，我有丈夫，我跟他很幸福。我要做一个忠实的妻子。’这些话不是一口气说出来</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">的</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">，而是结结巴巴迸出来的，说一个字就停顿一下。她继续说道；‘弄清你是谁和得到你的电话号码，并不容易。我不得不撒谎说柜子坏了，才从我婶母那里打听到你。我不会撒谎，婶母不相信我的话。不过，她还是把你的名字和住址告诉了我。’说完，她就默默不语了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我问道‘我们为什么不找个地方好好谈谈</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">”‘我哪儿也不能去。我本来可以在电话里把这些告诉你的。这一切是如此地离奇，太不合常理了。不过，现在你已知道了实情。’‘可我的确不知道你有什么心事，’我这样说完全是为了把我们的谈话拖长。她说：‘我以你视为神圣的一切东西的名义恳求你不要再折磨我了。我不能答应你的要求——我宁肯死也不会答应你。，她的脸变得灰白了。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我仍在装傻，说道：‘我不希望从你那里得到任何东西。诚然，我在你婶母家客厅看到你时，你给我留下了很深刻的印象但我没有做任何使你感到不安的事情。’‘不，你使我感到不安。如果我们不是生活在二十世纪，我会认为你是个巫师。请相信我’她接着说道，‘我作出给你打电话的决定并非易事。我甚至担心你可能不知道我是谁，但是，你立刻就知道我是谁。’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “‘我们不能站在街上谈，’我说，‘我们必须另找个地方。’‘什么地方</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">如果有熟人看到我的话，我就完了。’我说‘跟我来。’她迟疑了一会儿，就跟着我走。她穿着高跟鞋，看来行走不便，于是挽着我的手臂。即使她戴着手套，我也注意到她的手挺秀气。她的手在我的臂上颤抖，每次颤抖都传播到我的全身。过了一会儿，这位少妇就不那么拘束了，她说：‘你有什么魔力呀？我好多次所到你的声音。我还看到过你呢，我半夜醒来，你站在我的床跟前。从你的眼窝里看不到眼睛，只看到两道绿光。我便叫醒丈夫，可是你却立即消失了。’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “‘那是幻觉，’我说。‘不，你在夜游。’‘如果我在夜游的话，我自己并不知道。’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “我们定到维所杜拉河边，坐在一根圆木头上。那里十分寂静。那里酒鬼和叫化子很多，不太安全。但是她和我坐在一起。她说：‘我婶母不会知道我见到了你。’我对她说：‘我去散一会儿步。’她还要陪我呢。‘请你发誓不要再纠缠我了吧。你大概是有妻子的，你不会希望任何人纠缠她吧。’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “‘我没有妻子，’我说，‘但我向你保证，就我能力所及，我绝不会纠缠你。我只能保证这么多。’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “‘我会终生感激你的。’</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “这就是事情的全部经过。我后来再没看到过那位妇人。我甚至连她的名字也不知道。不知道为什么，反正在我经历的种种离奇事件中，这一件给我留下的印象最深。好了，就说这些吧。我不再打扰你了。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “你没有打扰我，”我说。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> </span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">“与一位具有这种魔力的人会晤是一件有益的事。它加强了我自己的信仰。但是，在你离开华沙时，玛尼娅怎么患了流行性感冒呢</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">你为什么不向她发号施令让她好了呢</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体">?</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “什么？我也经常向自己提出这个问题。看来我的魔力只起消极的作用。治愈疾病必须是圣人才行；正如你所看到的，我远非圣人。或者也许是因为——谁知道呢——在那些年代里，身边带上一个女人是很危险的缘故吧。”</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> 这个陌生人低下了头。他开始用手指扣击桌子，独自哼起曲子来了。然后他站了起来。他的脸似乎变了样：脸色灰白，皱纹满脸，他突然间变老了。他甚至也显得没有进来时那样高大了。我注意到他的雨衣上污迹斑斑。他伸出手来向我告别，我陪他走到电梯口。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> “你现在仍然想女人吗？”我问他。</span><span lang="EN-US" style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa;mso-fareast-font-family:宋体"><br /><span style="mso-spacerun:yes"></span></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-size:12.0pt;mso-hansi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-bidi-font-family:'times new roman';mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-ascii-font-family:'times new roman';mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"> 他想了一下，好象没有听懂我的话。他忧伤地望着我，带着怀疑的神色说道：“我只想那些死去的女人。”</span><font face="宋体, MS Song" size="3"> </font><span lang="EN-US"><br /><br /></span><span><br /><span><strong>本篇选自《傻瓜吉姆佩尔》外语教学与研究出版社1981年<span lang="EN-US">01</span>月</strong></span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size:10.5pt;color:black;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-family:tahoma;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-gb;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa"><br /></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;color:black;font-family:宋体;mso-bidi-font-family:tahoma;mso-font-kerning:1.0pt;mso-ansi-language:en-us;mso-fareast-language:zh-cn;mso-bidi-language:ar-sa">【猫头鹰手工录入，转载请注明转自黑蓝及录入人】</span></span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-size:10pt;color:black;font-family:tahoma;mso-ansi-language:en-gb"><br /></span><span lang="EN-US"><br /></span><span 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