诗的谱系（诗五首）

杨铁军

<p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">自我的贿赂</font></span><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我这样的人，不值得“从明天起”……，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">如果从哪里起的话，也必须是昨天。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">从昨天开始的好处我最了解。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">多少次我都是一觉醒到昨天，把时间</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">过了回去。我是一辆倒退的火车，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">它的里程表早已被修改。它显示的</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">从来不是今天。我从昨天起，往前天去。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">这样的旅程只有“自我”成为旅客。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我无法控制“自我”，我需要他的里程</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">对冲我的希望。如果他回到记忆的起点，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我的明天会更安全。人无法穿过生活的</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">门槛，他的“自我”推搪着未来——即使你拿得出今天</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">去贿赂他，或者干脆赌博。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'">2008.8.7</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">诗的谱系</font></span><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">一个想法勾起另一个想法。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">当你把下一个想法表现出来，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">上一个想法才得以固定，而</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">勾起它的联系却已经忘记（消失）。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">自我就是这样一个泡沫之海。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">有人说嗅觉可以唤起记忆，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">把碎片复原。其实这太乐观。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">还有人比较粗暴，直接用爪子</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">滑过海底更粗野的海水。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">这也不能令我满意，我还不能</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">转向浪漫主义——即便它是碎片</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">而不是西风。我把眼光投向草场，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">割草的腥味儿匍匐了鸟的翅膀。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我为之一振，但随即而来的</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">沉默却并不停驻。我不得不</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">寻求原始的简朴，从铁血的元素</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">抽取营养，还有那不名一文的抽象。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">当我所有的想法堆成一团，像沙子</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">那样固定起来，我更担心沙漏</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">把它的吸附之力抽空。让我像来去的游人，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">在海滩上继续那令人迷醉的编织。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'">2008.8.16</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我和记忆</font></span><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我不甘于做记忆的玩偶，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">颤动于它的战抖，接受它的摇摆。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我不甘于做自己的传递者</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">而无所作为。我叙述了过去的闪光，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">让自己的生活分割成胶片。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">而记忆的光却慢下来，让我抚摸</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">连绵的碎片。我不甘慢于记忆，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">就像我不甘快于生活。不管多么</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">必须的传承，我都不甘于像鸭子一样</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">被驱赶。我要在它慢下来时</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">快于自己的生活。更要在它快起来时</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">慢于它的讲述。我不是一个忠实的记忆的</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">载体。我是一个不断打破它，重建它，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">不甘于它的相差，相等，爱恨相缠。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'">2008.8.16</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">不断怀疑</font></span><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我不想在怀疑中度过一生，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">对生活的试探斤斤计较。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">对于我的现状，我安于把它</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">归于命运。我愿相信时间能</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">救赎空间，而我的怀疑只有</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">空间的宽度，却不具时间的长短。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我体验不到生活的宽度，就像</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">时间无所谓耽误。我躲过了你，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">却躲不过自己。对于命运我也曾有</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">不同的愤懑。但我不再企图</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">改变它在空间的轨迹。我的腿</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">可以带我，而我的怀疑也可以</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">裹挟我的一生。但我还有最后</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">的意识，在不断的怀疑中告诉我，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">怀疑的最终目的是否定自己。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'">2008.8.16</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-weight:bold;font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">大禹渡</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">从清澈到浑浊，经过了整个青海</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">和甘肃，绝不是简单的泾渭分明。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">跃过壶口的瀑布，它划了一道弯，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">来到山西的永济和芮城，不得不上迁</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">的永乐宫，和新近修成的鹳雀楼。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我从来没觉得这是一道伟大的河，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我只看到它在书本里流出的历史，和它</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">现实的拐弯并不相符。对它的记忆吞噬</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">的童年，还保留几分居高的思念。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">你曾在它泛滥的小溪里游泳，也曾横渡</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">对岸，踏足河南。在稀疏的柳林里，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">温暖的河沙上，浑不在意西下的太阳。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">岸边和缓的漩涡，几尺开外变成急促的奔突，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">一下让人头发竖立，惊起满身的冷汗。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我惊异于它汹涌的浪花，从时光的的裂缝里</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">一下子把泥沙拍进现实的嘴里。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">我并不理解如此的余波，但我尝到它宽阔的河床，</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><font face="宋体">深如海底，从不被生者窥见的危险。</font></span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p><p class="p0" style="margin-top:0pt;margin-bottom:0pt;vertical-align:baseline;line-height:100%;text-align:justify"><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'">2008.8.17</span><span style="font-size:10.5pt;font-family:'宋体';mso-spacerun:'yes'"><p></p></span></p>

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